idiot.

Why do we break our own hearts?

with your feet in the air and your head on the ground.

my mind has left.

WAR ON TERRORISM.

The world is in a bogeyed state, and it seems that whatever measure is taken things only seems to get worse, people are not striving for peace, they're not striving for a balance or interdependence (which realistically, we should be? we're all in it together, right?), they aim for money, power, sovereignty, without the realisation that this is impossible. Since the enlightenment and industrialisation we seem to have just built and built on hypocrisy, everything that is said or every action taken seems to be a contradiction to what they claim to be aiming for.

We don't want world war 3, but there's psychological warfare, breaking down our hearts and trust, resulting in us being backed into corners and agreeing to anything that they throw our way.

Take 9/11 for example, the constitution battled for a homeland security for years and this wasn't granted due to various states, whoever they may be rejecting the idea, 9/11 happens, the media tears through people with words such as "TERRORISM. JIHAD. BOMBS" low and behold, we want homeland security.

It seems that the conspiracies are just conspiracies within themselves, laying out horrendous events in the hope that the public will catch hold and in turn lose trust in the governing bodies, this results, i imagine, in some kind of over throw, or at least a restructure. But what happens with a restructure, if everything is laid out for us and we can see everything being planned in plain sight, how do we battle against it?

Somewhere there is an extremely intelligent, calculated, sinister, power hungry set of bigwigs.

The thing is, I don't understand the point of it all, if, and i say if, because i'm not so sure anymore, there is only Earth with civilisation in this entire universe, where else can this be taken? it can't. thats the point. So, what else is out there? Why do these people need all this money and power? Bloodlines schmudlines. It's pointless, but it's only pointless if this is all there is.

So lads, get yer telescopes out, oh wait. NASA control the ones that are even worth entertaining, ooh, and interestingly enough, NASA was set up by Nazi scientist, Wernher von Braun. Hmm, the plot thickens.

Maybe i'm a loon, maybe i think about things too much, but surely you have to question these things? It's all just a bit. Not right?!

woop-woop, it's the sound of the...oh wait, there is non.

So yesterday was Unity day and it was relatively good, apart from the mugging and watching some other guy have his head caved in with a skateboard.

There was a massive lack of Police presence, which of course, is due to the private security firm hired to man the event. They did real good in reducing crime (Y)! Well done.

A friend of mine was mugged for his point &shoot compact camera, then beaten by a bunch of youths. When he approached the Police (who were standing around the perimeter of the park) he was simply told "oh, yeah there's been a lot of that, there's not much you can do" now, i'm no expert in dealing with the Police, but i'm pretty sure that, that response is a fucking joke.

I then spoke to 2 officers, to question them about the lack of police presence and the reply that was given to a man who had just been robbed & beaten up, and was told "it's all politics, love. do you want me to explain it to you?"

No, my friend. I do not need politics explaining to me, because i'm not a fucking idiot. Secondly, don't call me 'love'.

I understand that the organisers of Unity Day have chosen to hire a private security group instead of paying for the Police, but I also understand that they have 4-6 strong team patrolling the park on a quiet sunday afternoon.

I emailed the local policing team for LS6, even though i have little faith in the Police service, they did actually email back and then called me to discuss my issues. The inspector that i spoke to did seem to take the complaint relatively seriously, but of course, nothing can be done because i didn't get the badge number. Still, badge number or no badge number, 2 sets of police gave bullshit responses to the publics questions. Can't be arsed with paper work much?!

Maybe i've got a bee in my bonnet about this, but i think situations like this build barriers between the public and the police.

when one person suffers from a delusion, it is called insanity. when many people suffer from a delusion it is called religion.

Religion terrifies me. The actions of it's millions of followers too often contradict everything that it stands for. Thou shalt not kill. Sorry, what?!

The tradition of religion apparently will outlive us all, in the 21st century, with science and technology so far developed, i find it hard to comprehend the brick wall that i, and many others seem to hit when faced with religion, be it Christianity, Islam, Judaism, the list goes on.

the more and more i learn about it, the more and more confusion it brings, firstly theres the overwhelming solidarity in people's faith, secondly.. in fact, i can't get past the first bit. it seems bizarre to me that people cannot and will not accept or even entertain the idea that it's just the greatest story ever to be told.

the scariest thing about religion is that people are not given a choice to have faith, especially when born into a very traditional religious family, the fear of God is put into children from such a young age, social control within households, 'obey mom &dad and you will not sin' thus resulting in a well behaved child, a child that won't burn forever and ever in a sinful furness of DOOOOM!

I don't even know what i'm trying to say about this. I know that it scares me though. I know that it seems to have manifested itself into a business. I know that it gives false hope to the most poverty stricken among us, and i know that it's claimed thousands upon thousands, millions in fact, of innocent lives.

There was an old woman who lived in a shoe.

This little beauty is my grandma's charm bracelet, that she's handed down to me!

How awesome is it? When i was younger i was fascinated by all the charms, how they opened and have tiny little people or cats or other bizarres! &how each one has a tale, and were bought by specific people for special occasions or trips to different countries.

fanks grandmaaa! ♥

Check out these little gems too, proper good find at a little vintage stall at Kendal Calling.
The big keys were £1 and the small keys were 50p! Bargain! I love the little compass necklace too, from Dolls and Molls. (www.dollsandmolls.co.uk)



Win.

walking round the kitchen in hotpants and a braaa.

For the past few weeks i feel like i've been walking around in a hazy bubble, not really taking on board the things that are happening around me, yet i feel like my mind, in it's confused state has managed to untangle a mound of thoughts that consciously i was unaware of. Now that they're all laid out in front of me, the tangling process begins. the more i think, the more confusion i create.

Kendal Calling was a larf. Met a couple of chums from the wrong side of the Pennines, but they were larvley!

p.s i can't be arsed telling you anymore about anything.